The Biggest Loser last night was pretty upsetting. It broke my heart to see Daris eating at night and I know he must have done a lot of extra eating to gain 2 pounds in 30 days while training for a marathon. This does not bode well for his success. He’s my favorite and I want to see his life turn around. I do so hope he can get some help.
The second thing is that the past contestants who joined the final 4 on the marathon. They had (all but Ali) all obviously gained weight, and not a little bit. Everyone knows that TBL contestants almost always gain back a portion, but not all of their weight. I do think it’s great that they’re still hanging in there, but I wish so much, that there was a change of heart accompanying their past weight loss. There is a reason why some of them do keep it off and it has to be a mind set and attitude. And that attitude and mind set must be hard to come by.
Overall, the show really shook me up. I can see how easy it is to fail, to go back to the past, and I don’t want that, with every fiber of my being I don’t want it. The main reason I started this blog was that I knew that it was going to be challenging to maintain and I figured that having a blog available, at the end of my loss, would help. I know, I put the horse before the cart, but it’s helped me very much to have a vision of my blogging about maintaining. My goal is 100 months of maintaining. Even if I only blog once a month when I reach goal, my goal is 100 months of maintaining. I feel it’s important to have this goal out there so that my mind will GET that this is an ongoing situation.
In other news. I have for sure decided that I’m going to be at goal when I reach 175, which means that I have 43 pounds to go. Which is amazing, and wonderful. I had ideas of maybe going to 168 or lower, but no. I’m quite tall and I’ve been at 175, a size 12, extremely happy, looking good, and that feels good to me. That feels very good. I see no need to get “skinnier” and “better” than that. I don’t want “wiggle room”, I want to be at a weight that looks and feels good on me and that I can maintain.
In other news, I put on my bathing suit that I had last worn about 3 weeks ago and the bra cups were almost HALF empty! I headed to the store yesterday for another. I only bought the bottoms, I have to go back for the top today. The bottoms are something I’ve dreamed of for a decade! They’re those sort of “boy shorts” bottoms that look very sporty, like super short running shorts. They cover your butt and cover your crotch and I love them. I’m looking for a cute top along the styles of a tank top to go with them. When I get what I want, I’ll take a picture…not ON me…please. The bottoms are black, so they’ll go with any tops I choose, but I want, color, color, color on the top. No plain black for me, ever again.
I need to get to work now, but wanted to update because blogging and journaling is key to my success. If I don’t get out, those things that I’m thinking, that haunt me, I don’t do well. Have a fun day!